100th Post!

I'm sure more of my regular visitors have noticed that I haven't blogged in a while.  We've been taking a break from the whole TTC thing, and I really haven't had anything interesting to blog about.  I hate that my last post was such a downer, so I think it's fitting that this 100th post have some defined closure with a hopeful and upbeat tone.  I may blog here and there as thoughts or events occur, but certainly nothing regular.

I've been on a pretty even keel recently in regards to our family situation.  I'm actually getting to the point that I'm thinking I don't want anymore babies of my own.  I don't know if this is just me rationalizing what I can't have to myself.  But Savannah is starting to be able to do more and more things on her own now-a-days.  She has even gotten to the point where she can brush and floss her teeth and can even wash her own hair (with a little supervision).  It's fantastic!  She'll be taking out the garbage and doing laundry and dishes before we know it!  I keep thinking how exhausting it would be to start over with another little one.  In fact, I mentioned all this to Kevin the other day and he was in agreement that if we don't have a baby in the next couple years or sooner we'll be done with this chapter in our lives.

Funny thing is we went to see Despicable Me later that day.  It's a heart-warming story about an evil villain who haphazardly ends up adopting three orphaned girls who worm their way into his heart.  It got me thinking.  Why couldn't we just skip the baby stage and adopt a child that was 3 or 4?  My need to nurture is so great that I know I would love this child as my own.  There are of course many things to consider with this option, but the most important concern is would Kevin learn to love this child as his own as well?  I think that's essential for the complete well-being of the child to feel truly accepted as a member of the family.  Anything less would be an injustice.

I mentioned the idea to Kevin.  He has not wanted to consider adoption up to this point but promised to reconsider his feelings on the matter if there is no chance for him to have further biological children.  I'm no longer sure what to expect in the future, but despite my desires I am beginning to learn how to be content with what I have now.